I am jumping in the pool here. I may come back and find this to be inappropriate but I want to get started. I had a blog for years. I wrote a magazine column in an industry journal for years. Then a set of circumstances I may discuss here later made me take a turn inward.
That led to a situation like a hand pump well on a farm where the water level dropped and the pump needs to be re-primed. I am actually old enough to have done that as a kid.
To the subject... I think my problem is that I have become an expert on my problems. I need other experts to tell me which of them will go away if I solve the ones that matter. It can't be the ADHD. I was successful for many years in spite of it.
I feel like someone else could look at me and say "Why are you sitting in that Ferrari? Go drive it!" I think the problem is to find out the answer to that question.
I hope looking for the answer because I realize I don't know the answer is a start.