I haven't been highly involved in 48 days in the last year, but I intend to get to know the community better and to seek out some knowledge and support, while sharing whatever I am able with others. This past year has been a bit of a rollercoaster, and I can feel things heating up again. I've been struggling lately with my current status and have had a lot of questions that I have not yet found answers for. I am very excited about the ministry that God has directed me into and I am continually seeing his hand in the production of this ministry. Why is it then that I still question my direction? I feel that I completely trust God, but I do not trust myself to do as he directs. I want so much for this ministry to take off, but feel that right now I just need to wait. I am juggling so many balls right now, I would so much like to drop one, but I am fearful to do so, and do not know whether this is what God would have me do, or whether this would be a wise decision? Waiting for God's direction.