'rant: rewritten

dropped when i sensed a truth i had been supported of only by what i can result a produce of outcome-refered income, or can monetarily pay for "the golden ticket" of

which to be included about this coach's community. that's been hard enough, though so-i felt the same sense of drop when two ladies i had been chiming in with to share growing a friendship-for the likes of who each other are-and i valuable to them as part of the mix, vs the consulation prize of i being only interesting to them-if i refer people to our connect-(if) those folks are interested in purchasing sources from them.

these are the reads that i get from these two situations-and it really has me feeling quite collapsed, and charged with anger n pain-even though i can pull up-and behave/having better feelings about myself linearly.

part of my interact with what i do to obtain the gain of income with people is sales..and as one reference on coaching to do with sales says not to be: the take of being a butler/no problem-anything's worth the take up of a close, i don't deserve the acceptance of: "if i don't produce results monetarily-that wayward me valuable-then i can't have support at all" (my wording-not theirs).

..if there be a positive side to learn from this-it does show me how i truly can't treat people-if i welcome the outcome desired of remaining friends with them-many a touches-long after if sale has occured-if offered such opportunity.

can i get a pulse-take/correspond from this community as to many? a wayward as to what i can do next, aside of talking with them?

awaiting a hopeful hug:'')

janne

(hope that this writing is more congruent thatn the 1st)