I’m going out on a limb with this because I’m sharing it before I’ve mastered it. As much as I believe it, and have found many momentary successes through it, I’ve not quite yet found the way to seal it inside myself. Maybe offering it for you will help create a sealed healing inside of me.
The root topic is fear. Anxiety, panic attacks, angst, phobias, nervous disorders…it’s all fear and fear sucks. If you don’t believe me, try it sometime. What I have learned is that, while fear can and often will imprison us, the keys to that prison cell are in our own hands, not fear’s.
It’s a trust thing. I’ve come to realize this through my own walk with fear. I’ve dealt with it throughout my entire life…I’ve allowed it to hold me back in every area of my life. This year, it’s climbed to a much higher, shinier level. It’s gotten so strong that I have had no choice but to find the answer for its dissolution. I could go the medication route, but I don’t want to. I’m not faulting people who do that, I just prefer a different path.
The bible says “perfect love casts out fear”… I would tweak that just a bit to say “trusting in (accepting) perfect love casts out fear”. The perfect love, of course, is God’s perfect love. Trusting that, as Kim Jones-Pothier, CEO of Conquering Hell in High Heels, said to me recently, “He thinks you are the bomb-dot-com” no matter what you do, is the root for casting out all fear, and all fear’s off shoots. Trusting in our own acceptability before God (regardless of our performance or the opinions of others) seems to automatically permit us to accept ourselves. It does for me. In those moments when I find it within myself to make that choice to r-e-a-l-l-y trust that love…fear, rejection, isolation, even rage all dissolve. It turns me into a strong, stable, and peaceful human being. I believe it will do the same for you.
Like I said, it’s a trust thing.