i just want to pull away...sometimes..i just dont feel i fit in to the comforts of life..sometimes..i feel that my thoughts...really do not matter in a world where theres so many answeres....and i dunno...what differences can i make in a place where we have houses,cars,jobs,and yet...so much loss...sometimes i feel my life is just forfiet..and thats how i really feel...how much time has been wasted?...
and then i realize..how many others where im at feel the same...they are lost in…Continue
...i have had the wonderful blessing of an older guy sit down with me,and just talk...hes very cool,american indian.and he showed me something with regard the area where i live that,i see the differences...
a guy from the church came up and acknowledged me,but only because he was saying hello to his 'church buddy feathers'...this is otherwise known as sincere insincerety...when i told him i was leaving for florida,he asked if i was planning to stop in at the church to say goodbye..i…Continue
will i know whats its like to feel a family again..before i go home?
will i know what it feels like to be a part of a church again...before i go home?
will i know what its like to live out my many dreams...before i go home?
will i know what its like to spend time with special friends...before i go home?
will i know what its like to feel secure as i know i should...before i go home?
will i know what its like to bless people in my life beyond my…Continue
i may spend the rest of my life,just rewiring my head,and i may never do,whats in my heart to do...but at least i know,ive rewired my head as much as i know to do...
for though i was dumped on and left for dead,from an original family system that was just childish in their thinking...im learning to rewire my head.
i feel all these things inside,and ive learned to realize,not all of it is about me...it was the emotions from false maps they gave to me.
maybe few care to…Continue